I want to completely change the way I look by using cosmetics?

No offense - but no ones gives an damn what you look like, only you. If someones biggest most important aspect of their life, is judging what you look like, then they are deluded. I'll say this now, it's no good hiding yourself under tons of make up, fake tan, fake hair, because if you don't have the backbone to approve of yourself now, then people have no obligation to when your smothered head to toe in cosmetics. Your just another example that there is too much pressure on women to look good.